Daryl. :D

while i was cooking chicken maggie plus egg for lunch,
image went though my head,
and i felt hungry again, i went to cook soba with miso soup.
eating alone
felt so lonely.
you will say, is too much, i cannot finish, then that sad face,
dunno why i still feel kinda, arghh,
things are never the same,
mahjong with darren febian and hy,
i think is a month when i last saw hy,
went home and blogger here, talking rubbish with darren,
kinda bored about club already,
but for the sake of friends i still go.
where to find such friend like me?
nights world,
i want 2012 soon

hey world,
resting at home for 2 days it just fucking shiok, you mei you,
i guess i am the last person to know things btw.
but is okay,
things will turn good for you,
i know i cant be a complete friends to you,
i just hoping, praying things will turn better? yeahh,
i hope things will turn good between you and him,
going to take a nap,
and i have the urge to sleep, i am tiredddddddd
time flies, is been half a year on this 28
i want pa-pa-party.
bye earth

its nice to have a bike course, is super relax,
good life, good food, and can fuck care everything.
but have been sleeping around 12 plus and have to wake up around 530, is killing me
please, i need to sleep early,
good night people,
i used to be love drunk
and now hangover,
i love you forever,
changes need to be made,
willing to do it,
i miss you,
really do.
times we spend i really treasure it,
can i know what to do next ):

happy birthday to darren seah yeah,
went for his birthday party celebration yesterday,
it was fun, after that some shit stuff and we headed to powerhouse,
and after party went to mac to get water and went home.
last week in camp was just super tiredddddddd,
went to the field for 2 days come back for soc test, got caught smoking in the toilet and because of that, i got to sign 5 extra that earns me 5 weekend not booking out.
thats sucks big time,what can i do?
so what you are a good kind person? people do take advantage of you?
love is just a game,
it will have an end point.
it do not happen in reality, it only happen in drama.
give it all up, taking back my love(not)

I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again
I miss you like crazy
Even More than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
You are all that I want
You are all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again
I miss you like crazy
Even More than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

just so randomly i heard this song from febian phone,
you just appeared in my mind,
the time we spend together was so wonderful,
how i wish i can just hug you with my arms,
that will be more then enough for me.
i wonder will i ever have a chance to hug you again.
guess what tomorrow
another month has pass-ed
good luck in live

weird without having those gays by my side as they are all busy with their fuck shit.
camp mate are just surprise to come into my life,
and i really have fun with them,
lots of question just bang into my mind.
i want to know all the answer to all the question,
but,
i don have the courage to ask
i already cant give you smile,
the world is spinning,
and i want to move on
and i will try my best,
as i know
you want me to.

unknowingly 3 months in the army is over for me,
and i had pass out already
time pass so fast,
this 3 month is never easy for me,
this maybe the hardest 3 months i had in my entire life,
the 8days 7 night field camp is just unbelievable.
the nights that i slept in the rain, walk in the rain,
the punishment i got
the stand by bed, stand by area, and the nightmare of stand my universe
the physical training in camp is the wtf
the day you were gone
the insomnia which i had,
the 24 km road march,
and the enlistment day when my bud came and send me off, just touched to the max.
i learn how to be strong, independent and take care of myself,
life for me is aimless,
i still thinking should i continue my studies after ns(which my dad really wants)
or i should just sign on and fuck the world.
i know i have been missing out loads of fun around.
along my ns life till now,
febian joey and darren is always there when i need, i really thanks you guys,
the chilling session that we had, esp with febian,
life is never easy for anyone,
things dont always goes your way,
i had mine and you had yours,
never ending problems for you, which i cant do anything much just to stand by your side listening to you. accompany you, thats what i can only do.febian. stand up soon.
and soon i am turning 20,
i am no longer young.
and,
is nice to see you having a nice life
i can see that you are enjoying yourself,
and maybe thats the you which you are.
the smile you had now is something which i cant give
i am just happy that you are able to have this life which you want.
i am really glad, and the same time, i am sad.
this show thats you already do not need me.
remember enjoy yourself to the fullest. because that is you.
the real you.
imy.